As I sit here at home sitting on the couch watching tv, tears rolling down my face, it’s over just like that.
Tonight my heart swelled with love and intense emotions once again as it has so many times since you’ve been alive baby girl. Tonight you decided to end our very last nursing session.
We were down to one nursing session, the night one. Tonight when you said no and I laid you back down to try again, you replied “no mama” and sat up on my lap waiting for your bottle of milk. Although I replied “ok Baby, let me get you leche” it hurt my heart. I got up with you, got your bottle and as I gave you your bottle of leche in the dark while singing to you tears ran down my face.
I can’t believe our breastfeeding journey has ended. I mean I’m happy we were able to do one year and one month of your life but it’s such an emotional connection that only you and I had. I love you and that will absolutely never change.
Thank you for making me a mom, yourmom. Thank you for showing me love like none I had ever known. Thank you for giving my life a whole new meaning.
As this chapter ends for us, I know another one will start but God did I love this chapter.
Bittersweet. So bittersweet.