almost one.

As I sit at work I can’t stop thinking about my little Em. How has it nearly been one full year? I can still remember the very first time the nurse handed her over to me as it was one of the most amazing moment of my life. Her scrawny little face and her newborn smell – there’s literally nothing in this world more intoxicating than the smell of your newborn. She was huge for a newborn but she was so tiny compared to now. I just can’t believe it.

Emma will be one in 11 days and honestly, I’m freaking out. If I think about it too much, I cry. Literally. In my entire 30 years of life I’ve never endured a year with so many emotions and yes, although some were very sad and dark there have been an overwhelming amount of light and bright emotions. She has brought so much happiness into my life that I thought was not possible. Our pediatrician said something one day that still resonates with me and that was that love is not a big enough word to describe what you feel for your child. He’s so right!

Love is such a minut description of what one feels for their child.

those squishy little cheeks that you can’t help but kiss 5,000 times a day.

those chunky little legs and feet.

those huge, amazement-filled eyes.

those tiny hands.

that tiny human being that is evolving into their very own self.

I love her so much and I hope she grows up feeling and knowing just how much I love her and how much she fills our lives.

Sorry guys, I’ve been in my feels!

xoxo

First Steps!

So I work in the city every Tuesday and when I got home last week my baby girl was waiting for me standing by herself on our lawn!

Standing. By herself, no help!

Where is time going? Of course I didn't even try to get a picture because I was so focused trying super hard not to cry on our lawn lol.

Why is time going so fast?! I just can't get over how bittersweet this whole parenting thing is. Sorry, I know I sound like a broken record but come on, any other parent would tell you the same thing.

Xoxo


How cute are these two?!

First Birthday Prep!

Hello everyone,

I am knees deep in getting everything ready for Emma’s first birthday and it is such an exciting time! My bff/Emma’s Godmother is all the way in it with me because she’s absolutely fabulous and is an absolute amazing party planner.

Going into this I knew I truly wanted a cutesy, DIY type of birthday. Absolutely nothing crazy over-the-top and something that I would love for years to come. She has helped me bring my vision to life, she has sat there and listened to me and helped me weave through the thousands of Pinterest saved pictures lol. I cannot wait to see it all finally done and come together and I just can’t believe my baby girl will be one so very soon.

We went with a fairy/enchanted garden theme and quickly found that there is nothing that went with our little mood board. Everything we found to buy was either too gawdy, too bright and crazy or too big kid for a first birthday. This led us to go the DIY route and I couldn’t be happier! I can’t wait to share some pictures with you guys 🙂

I used Minted.com for the invitations and am in love with everything. The quality is phenomenal and I was able to get the envelopes addressed for free and that just really makes a huge difference. You input all the addresses into the website and choose who to send it to from that list and you’re done! Super simple, and I got them delivered so quickly I was blown away.

Can’t believe she’ll be one in 1 month!

xo

 

Family.

What a great past few days we’ve had over in our small corner of the world!

Our North Carolina family came to visit for one of Emma’s cousin’s first birthday and it was a great time. Whenever they come over we always have a fun time – just being around them makes us happier. Emma met Sebastian and fell in love with that little munchkin.

Family is a strange thing, sometimes you don’t like them very much but when things get to gettin, you’re always there for your family. The complexity of families comes from so many different personalities and beliefs and people voicing their opinions because everyone is so comfortable around each other. I don’t necessarily believe that when there are sly comments between family members its said maliciously its simply because everyone is so comfortable around each other.

Next time you’re around everyone in the family, really sit there and enjoy them! Truly, enjoy them, look at the children and their interactions and I promise you it will make all the difference and you will see the worth in spending time with family.

Love you guys!

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I mean, how cute are these 2 bubs?!

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I love you Sebastian!

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Happy birthday CJ!

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Emma’s Godparents ❤

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These two.  ❤

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Happy Birthday Husband

It was my husband’s birthday last weekend .. so yea this is late but, life happens 🙂

Jonathan is amazing! He’s a great dad and hubs and he is a fabulous person in general. He is such a hard working person and because of his schedule he doesn’t get to spend half as much time as he’d like to with the baby but bills gotta get paid!

We love you Dadda!

Enjoy a few shots of him + baby

P.S. – this was my very first made from scratch cake! Of course I left out the baking soda so it wasn’t as fluffy as it should’ve been lol 

9 months today

Dear Em,

Today you have officially been on this earth for nine whole months. When everyone kept telling me, “enjoy because it goes by so fast” I swear my eyes would roll all the way to Canada. Baby, time really is going by too fast.

I know that before I know it you won’t need me to nurse you. Before I know it, you won’t need me to bathe you, to hold you when you’re not feeling well, to kiss your little toes.

You won’t need me at all…

For now, I will kiss you as much as I want and hold you as long as you want – for now is the time when you still need my touch.

Love, mamma.

xx

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