First Birthday Photo Shoot!


Here it is! Emma’s First Birthday Shoot.

This was so fun to create and I truly hope you guys enjoy it!



The end.

As I sit here at home sitting on the couch watching tv, tears rolling down my face, it’s over just like that.

Tonight my heart swelled with love and intense emotions once again as it has so many times since you’ve been alive baby girl. Tonight you decided to end our very last nursing session.

We were down to one nursing session, the night one. Tonight when you said no and I laid you back down to try again, you replied “no mama” and sat up on my lap waiting for your bottle of milk. Although I replied “ok Baby, let me get you leche” it hurt my heart. I got up with you, got your bottle and as I gave you your bottle of leche in the dark while singing to you tears ran down my face.

I can’t believe our breastfeeding journey has ended. I mean I’m happy we were able to do one year and one month of your life but it’s such an emotional connection that only you and I had. I love you and that will absolutely never change.

Thank you.

Thank you for making me a mom, yourmom. Thank you for showing me love like none I had ever known. Thank you for giving my life a whole new meaning.

As this chapter ends for us, I know another one will start but God did I love this chapter.

Bittersweet. So bittersweet.


Emma’s Fairy First Birthday

It has now officially been over 2 weeks since Emma’s first birthday and wow, what a wonderful time it was!

When I tell you we did everything, yep we did everything. It was a lot of work but it truly made all the difference. I wanted it to be very personal and the only way was by DIY. Pinterest definitely helped and thanks to my amazing best friend + Em’s Godmother who so happens to be a fabulous party planner 🙂 for bringing this vision completely to life!

My baby girl is officially one year old and as amazing as ever.

Hope you enjoy the photos!


This was the kid zone

We had fairy wings made for the girls and little elf hats made for the boys

We chose our favorite shots from her first year to make a little memory tree – great conversation starter!

Her reaction was perfect!


Best party planner EVER


All the kiddos


We wanted really old school games and they were a hit!


Bigs + Littles alike 🙂


He kissed Emma!


Naked cakes 🙂


a look back.

One year ago today i found myself heavy, uncomfortable, excited, anxious and scared. I was past my due date and was praying to go into labor already! I couldn’t wait to get this baby out and meet her. I remember rolling over to get out of bed and so much discomfort. I had tons of pelvic pains because she was so heavy. My stomach was insanely large and tight and I just wanted to give birth.

Fast forward till now and I cannot believe I have been a mom for nearly one full year. It has been the most incredible and difficult year thus far. I literally cannot equate this year to any other year of my life. I am so happy that Emma is alive and so are we lol. I mean it’s been THAT real. So many ups and downs, so many tears – sad tears and happy tears alike.


In the beginning it was a huge struggle getting used to being parents. Jonathan struggled with becoming a dad and bonding, I struggled with all the responsibilities of keeping it together period. I remember us waiting so long to have a baby because we wanted to be “ready” ha! I laugh now thinking back at the notion of being ready to become parents because you’re honestly never ready, I think. Don’t get me wrong, I am very glad we waited to be financially ready and I think we were as ready as one can be to be parents and we were still honestly not ready. You’re entire life changes, not so much bad because its not, but a simple thing like eating becomes difficult. It is a very weird thing when you become parents because everything you were accustomed to is no longer a thing. You eat, breathe, think, dream about your child.

This year has brought us closer as a family, we’re a unit :). We have grown closer than we have in our years of marriage. We have been through super tough times and super exciting times. Boy what a year it’s been!


almost one.

As I sit at work I can’t stop thinking about my little Em. How has it nearly been one full year? I can still remember the very first time the nurse handed her over to me as it was one of the most amazing moment of my life. Her scrawny little face and her newborn smell – there’s literally nothing in this world more intoxicating than the smell of your newborn. She was huge for a newborn but she was so tiny compared to now. I just can’t believe it.

Emma will be one in 11 days and honestly, I’m freaking out. If I think about it too much, I cry. Literally. In my entire 30 years of life I’ve never endured a year with so many emotions and yes, although some were very sad and dark there have been an overwhelming amount of light and bright emotions. She has brought so much happiness into my life that I thought was not possible. Our pediatrician said something one day that still resonates with me and that was that love is not a big enough word to describe what you feel for your child. He’s so right!

Love is such a minut description of what one feels for their child.

those squishy little cheeks that you can’t help but kiss 5,000 times a day.

those chunky little legs and feet.

those huge, amazement-filled eyes.

those tiny hands.

that tiny human being that is evolving into their very own self.

I love her so much and I hope she grows up feeling and knowing just how much I love her and how much she fills our lives.

Sorry guys, I’ve been in my feels!


First Steps!

So I work in the city every Tuesday and when I got home last week my baby girl was waiting for me standing by herself on our lawn!

Standing. By herself, no help!

Where is time going? Of course I didn't even try to get a picture because I was so focused trying super hard not to cry on our lawn lol.

Why is time going so fast?! I just can't get over how bittersweet this whole parenting thing is. Sorry, I know I sound like a broken record but come on, any other parent would tell you the same thing.


How cute are these two?!

First Birthday Prep!

Hello everyone,

I am knees deep in getting everything ready for Emma’s first birthday and it is such an exciting time! My bff/Emma’s Godmother is all the way in it with me because she’s absolutely fabulous and is an absolute amazing party planner.

Going into this I knew I truly wanted a cutesy, DIY type of birthday. Absolutely nothing crazy over-the-top and something that I would love for years to come. She has helped me bring my vision to life, she has sat there and listened to me and helped me weave through the thousands of Pinterest saved pictures lol. I cannot wait to see it all finally done and come together and I just can’t believe my baby girl will be one so very soon.

We went with a fairy/enchanted garden theme and quickly found that there is nothing that went with our little mood board. Everything we found to buy was either too gawdy, too bright and crazy or too big kid for a first birthday. This led us to go the DIY route and I couldn’t be happier! I can’t wait to share some pictures with you guys 🙂

I used for the invitations and am in love with everything. The quality is phenomenal and I was able to get the envelopes addressed for free and that just really makes a huge difference. You input all the addresses into the website and choose who to send it to from that list and you’re done! Super simple, and I got them delivered so quickly I was blown away.

Can’t believe she’ll be one in 1 month!